So i’m in this weird place on this journey right now. And I don’t know how to explain it.
The only thing that comes close to me explaining it is, relating it to Cameron Diaz role in The Holiday. Her character can’t cry. Thoughout the movie you see her trying to (quite comical I may add). That is exactly how I feel. Not about crying, because I don’t have a very hard time crying. But in explaining or talking about what’s going on in my life. I usually don’t have a hard time with that…and i’m very open about telling people. But lately I just don’t have words.
I keep a journal and I write down everything from prayers, to daily events in life, to lyrics etc. Usually I can write pages at a time. But lately they’ve been less that one page. Its weird.
There is this “thing” stiring inside of me. I can’t pinpoint what it is.
It kind of feels like when you have a crush on someone and you get done having a good conversation with them…and you go home and just scream at the top of your lungs….because you just can’t hold in your happiness (so maybe i’m the only one…haha but i’m cool with that)
I just can’t find what I want to scream in joy about…
I want you to SCREAM!!